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SHIMINHello. My name is SHIMIN.:D! Give me presents! On 10JUNE :D I study in NYJC, haha.:D I love everyone!:D And I'M CRAZY!?!? :D
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SHIMINHello. My name is SHIMIN.:D! Give me presents! On 10JUNE :D I study in NYJC, haha.:D I love everyone!:D And I'M CRAZY!?!? :D
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Wednesday, February 18
two days ago, something disrupted my life again. i din expect to see you again, really. after my "o"s, i thought i've already let go of everything. including you and our past. however, im wrong. the moment i saw you, i knew something was not right. whenever you appear, whenever you talked about the past, i just feel that something is wrong. i really do wanna treat you just lik anyone else, but i just can't. im afraid tt you could sense tt i haven let go. i dun wanna go through another time. i dun wanna to hear you asking me to let go. its really hurtful, really. i've tried my very best to suppress my feeling by giving you cold shoulder. but does tt really help? i don't know. currently, im very upset with myself. why am i so stubbon regarding this matter? *bang wall bang wall* you were never totally out of my mind. from then till now. when u asked about whats wrong? i really had the impluse to tell you. but utimately, im still afraid of the consequences. do i really not mind losing u as a friend? im really sorry tt i just can't treat you as a normal friend. the attention i gave u, has far exceed the boundary. given a chance, i would wanna to go back to the past. i wanna know u again, and i wanna let u know the real me. not the shimin i tried to portrait. i wanna tell you how i really felt. do i really nt mind when i say its ok? i don't. i was wrong then. i wanted to ask so much about you, but i just din have the courage. im afraid tt you will find me a chore. in the end, im left with so many unsure about you. "are you even serious in the first place?" perhaps, it was due to these which make me wanna start afresh so much. because i wasn't really who i am in tt relationship. i regretted. very. However, whatever it is now, there's no turning back. i just need to rant. i doubt i would ever see you again. i just need to move on and i have to. one yr plus is enough. i haven took this long to forget someone, what more its just a very very short relationship. i beg myself to move on! im no longer tt xiao sa. able to take and let go easily. especially in this case. im not happy with this>.< Wednesday, February 18, 2009
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