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SHIMINHello. My name is SHIMIN.:D! Give me presents! On 10JUNE :D I study in NYJC, haha.:D I love everyone!:D And I'M CRAZY!?!? :D
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SHIMINHello. My name is SHIMIN.:D! Give me presents! On 10JUNE :D I study in NYJC, haha.:D I love everyone!:D And I'M CRAZY!?!? :D
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Saturday, April 8
Long Post Sumtimes...i wonder how my mum will react if she noes abt mi...i bet she will first slap mi,give mi a long scolding,ignore mi,keep mi in the hse...hmmm...most likely...but im sure i won feel good...oh well...i really thank all my beloved friends for ur care this past few weeks...i really do wanna stand up and behave like wat i used to be...u noe...the positive mi...always laughing and mad...perharps nt to the sec 1...im missin the old mi...haiz...i do feel the changes in mi... My feelings now...depressed,stress,lonely...haiz... Im upset over wat happen to mi and him...but i guess...i cant do anything...but to learn to accept the fact...i told all my frens i had get over him but i guess...deep inside...im still hurt...nowadays...memories of mi and him hab been flashing across mi...i miss those times...haiz...nvm...i will keep them deep inside my heart nt brain...he is the first guy whom i let into my heart...cos he can share my problem while i shared his...i can feel the care he gave...but i neva treasure it in the past...i realli love the spend time tokin to him...haiz...forget abt tt ba...as wat i promised myself...by the 100 day...i mus get over it... Im feelin stress nt becos...exams are cumin...and till now...im still nt ready...haiz...i think partly becos of him...and partly becos of my laziness...haiz...i dun really hab the mood to study...and im really too tired...haiz... Im havin tt lonely feeling...becos of mani thingy...nowadays...when i get home...im alone...sumtimes my sister is there..but high chances are...she is slping...i noe she is tired...so i dun wanna to trouble her...summore i dun wanna make her sad...in the past...i use to sms him or wait for his sms...i had sumthing in my mind to nt let my mind wander around...but now...haiz...Im really afraid of that feelin...i admit...i use to hab tt feelin in the past too...but nt tt often...perharps once in a few months...but now...EVERYDAY...im crying almost everyday becos of this...im so scared... Below is jus some words to those who conforted mi this few days... Sis- I wanna thank u the most...i noe u care lots for mi...i can really feel it...sumtimes...its nt tt i dun wanna share wif u...but...i jus dun wanna affect you...thank you and sorri... Jac-Among the friends area...i wanna thank you the most...im most sure to say tt...u understand mi the most among all friends...although the way u use to confort mi include some scoldin...but it really touch mi...the time when u offered to come pei mi when u noe tt i dun wanna be alone...the time when u offered mi ur bread when u noe tt i skip my meals cos of bad appetide...and force mi to eat...the time when u call and found out my weak side,u conforted mi...telling mi tt im nt alone...and lots lots more...which i cant express through words...to others these might be a small thing...but to mi...it means alot..although sumtimes we did had argument...but...i still treasure u Joanne & stella-thanks for conforting mi...waking mi up...i used to hide my problems...oni showing the strong mi...reasons being...i dun wanna to affect others...therefore...i hide everything...i tot tt i can overcome everything myself...but...i cant...thanks for u two...willing to share my problem and help mi...i rmb the most wat u two said...joanne:"bu yao wei le ta er shang xin"yup...i noe...i will try...Stella:"telling us ur problem does nt affect us...we jus wanna help u fen dan" i understand ur hao yi...i will try to nt hide my feelings...gimme time... BeeHui-Among all my close fren...i guess wat u noe is the least...i doubt u noe the truth...accept the fact tt im sad...but still i thank you for trying so hard to kai dao mi...thanks for accompanying mi to walk around when im feelin low...thank you loads... WAnni-thanks for chating wif me online...listen to my ranting...thanks for supporting my decision even when i dun hab confident...telling mi to follow my heart...really really wanna thank u alot...toking to you always maake mi feel good...suddenly...i miss u so much... Emily-thanks for tagging...i miss u... Chen an-ur turn now sotong...although i doubt u will see this...i thank you too for chating wif mi online and through sms...thx for ur conforting...i really really thank you...although we dun noe each other for a long time...but i guess friendship isnt count on how longer u noe each other..but the sincere and effort we put in...i will rmb wat u say...follow my heart Elijah-u and beehui same...dunno wat happen to mi...oni the fact tt im sad...although u did nth...but still...thanks for listening to my ranting...thank you... My friends...i promised to try to return to the old mi...gimme time... Suddenly had a feelin to do sumthing asked to do a long time ago...i guess u guys won be interested...its oni for myself.. The Guy I wanna... The Must 1.To care and love mi lotsa... 2.To be able to let mi open my heart and chat wif him...(its hard...) 3.To be honest to mi(if u had tt record of lying...its will be hard for mi to trust u again) 4.To be able to spend time wif mi... 5.The look isint tt important to mi...jus shun yan den ok le... 6.Take the first move...( u cant expect mi to take the first move for anything...cos tt ish jud nt like mi) 7.To understand mi...(able to notice when im nt feelin good...able to noe wat i wanna) 8.Able to let mi miss him... 9.Dare to admit tt we are together... 10.Able to gimme tt sense of security... The Don'Ts - All opposite of the (must) -No flirting wif other girls...(i guess no girls wanna tt) hahas...sound so bo liao...but its so hard to find tt HIM...shun le...concentrate on studies more important...summore i decided not to step into the trap again...until i leave sec sch and until i find tt him... hmmm...I wanna wanni,emily,my sis and ee sing to do:] hahas Next...Sports day...held on 7/4 i was frm mars...but i smuggle to venus..got two reasons...firsts...my frens are in venus...second...i was in venus during my times in yck...miss those time... I saw him running...fast enough...but he said he cry...becos first time lost in the 200m race in his 7 yrs....oh well...i think tt losin wasnt tt bad after all...at least u tried...haiz...dun say liao la... last but not least...overall...venus won the race and second in the cheer...hahas...congrats... Saturday, April 08, 2006
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